The Dutch Ghost
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The Dutch Ghost

Grouchy old man of NMA, Male, 41, from Leeuwarden, The Netherlands

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Feeling tense and overwhelmed with despair after a nap I couldn't prevent because of yesterday. Feel like I am in fight or flight mode. Jul 20, 2021

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Jul 29, 2021 at 5:56 PM
    1. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Feeling tense and overwhelmed with despair after a nap I couldn't prevent because of yesterday. Feel like I am in fight or flight mode.
      1. Morgan_
        Morgan_
        Go for a good jog. Eat better and stay on schedule. Don't allow yourself to get swept up in it too often. Hang out with friends of find a book or show you like.
        Jul 21, 2021
    2. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      And I successfully wasted another complete day. It is a fucking talent, the one thing I am good at.
      1. TorontoReign
        TorontoReign
        Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and try again.
        Jul 11, 2021
      2. Hardboiled Android
        Hardboiled Android
        something that always helps me is to set small, very short-term goals which aren't super hard to get to but aren't a big deal if you don't: wake up at such-and-such a time, have two or three little things to get done, be in bed by a reasonable hour
        Jul 11, 2021
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      3. TorontoReign
        TorontoReign
        Make sure the goal is something you won't fuck up though or you reinforce that failure mindset. Stop doing that by the way. Since I have known you you do nothing but put yourself down.
        Jul 11, 2021
    3. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      I had to have my cat put to sleep after she has been sick for weeks. In a sense she was already gone, but it was still a hard decision.
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      2. Hardboiled Android
        Hardboiled Android
        What matters is that you gave her a good life for as long as you could here
        Jul 3, 2021
      3. Alphons
        Alphons
        I personally believe in an afterlife, but even if there's nothing after death I'm sure she left this world happy, knowing that you care about her.
        Jul 4, 2021
      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Right now I just miss her so much. As she was no longer able to jump any more she no longer slept at the end of my bed, greeting me when I woke up.
        And now I don't find her on the back of the couch, windowsill, or under a table any more.
        Jul 4, 2021
    4. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      There are days such as the last couple that I honestly wish that Death would stop playing hide and seek and just claim me.
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      2. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Rather late with responding because of my usual bullshit (I'm great at that).
        I have been in therapy on and off over the years, and it has not helped me that much.
        One of the frustrations is that I always asked to lower my expectations and accept my life as it is.
        As my life is mediocre and pointless, what is there to embrace?
        Jul 1, 2021
      3. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Being dead would actually be an "upgrade", as even those few hopes I have that keep me going on will be off my mind, along with my frustrations, memories, reminder that this is it.
        Jul 1, 2021
      4. Hardboiled Android
        Hardboiled Android
        I would reccomend at least trying therapy again if you really are at such a low point, and quite frankly getting medicated if you aren't already - there's a stigma but the stuff is there for people who really need it, and someone I know who has gone on antidepressants has been reporting really wonderful results.
        Jul 1, 2021
    5. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Ugh, I keep thinking about how I would fix FOBOS1 and 2, and make them enjoyable. Mainly because I feel sad.
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      2. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Perhaps some people really have been overrating these titles because of nostalgia, but I also don't think that they should be considered "terrible" either.
        They're just "average", mostly because the game is very shallow and repetitive.
        May 10, 2021
      3. Morgan_
        Morgan_
        You want to commit suicide because Interplay Fallout is gone?
        Just play a 3d platformer instead.
        Jun 27, 2021
      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        I do not want to kill myself because Iplay is gone. Fuck Herve and Fargo.
        I feel frustrated because I can not accomplish anything on an equal level despite wanting so much to do so.
        Jun 27, 2021
    6. The Dutch Ghost
      1. Norzan
        Norzan
        Lol Bethesda fanboys will read too much into the shitty Bethesda Fallouts.
        Apr 22, 2021
      2. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        I wish it would summon some ungodly horror that would drag them all into another dimension along with Bethesda itself.
        Apr 22, 2021
      3. TheGM
        TheGM
        REMEMBER LOVECRAFT WE PUT LOVECRAFT IN THE GAME BECAUSE WE REMEMBERED LOVECRAFT.
        Apr 22, 2021
    7. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      I just had to call the veterinarian this evening to make an appointment to have my cat Lapke put to sleep as she is so sick. I feel cursed.
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      3. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        I apologize for the drama I may have caused as that was not my intention.
        Apr 11, 2021
      4. Alphons
        Alphons
        Great to hear it. Has your vet suggested anything?
        Apr 11, 2021
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      5. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Not really other than continue giving her the pills I am giving her now, and monitor her condition.
        The weird thing is; she has started eating again.
        Apr 12, 2021
    8. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
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      2. Norzan
        Norzan
        It's so thin veiled that is trying so hard to be "controversial" just for the purpose of getting views, and hence get ad revenue. It's pathetic and shameful.

        Specially when the article does such a piss poor job explaining anything, and skims so much from each game to make its "points".
        Mar 4, 2021
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      3. TheGM
        TheGM
        Now that is a fucking work if I ever seen one. everything Norzan said is correct and that is just some rage bait article with the goal of attracting fallout turbonerds to harass the author on social media. jokes on them, there are no more fallout tubronerds, they all died.
        Mar 4, 2021
      4. XNarrol
        XNarrol
        Mar 4, 2021
    9. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      I would really like to talk with some of the other writers here about my Fallout Texas ideas. I would like to hear their thoughts.
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      2. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        While I would like there to be references and some links to FO1, 2, and FNV, the idea is to create a setting with its own factions and organizations. So no NCR or BOS, but instead Lone Star and Followers of the ATLANTIS.
        Feb 24, 2021
      3. TheGM
        TheGM
        I wanna see Fallout Pirates! like those dudes from Water World.
        Feb 24, 2021
      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        If possible I would like there to be water themed raiders, and yes I had something like the Smokers in mind. They would be harassing the prospectors from the drowned city.
        Feb 27, 2021
    10. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Sometimes I wonder if I for my own dream Fallout project should perhaps only treat FO1 and FO2 as canon and ignore FNV.
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      2. StopSigntheVendingMachine
        StopSigntheVendingMachine
        NV is still respected enough by fans to be accepted as canon.
        Jan 25, 2021
      3. Aurelius Of Phoenix
        Aurelius Of Phoenix
        I feel the Van Buren documents leave a more consistent and interesting world than NV at the end of the day.
        Jan 25, 2021
      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Hello all, sorry for not responding
        Aurelius, that is also what I sort of have. I like FNV but I feel that VB would have been a better continuation and place to continue from.
        To much was cut to fit in FNV.
        Jan 25, 2021
    11. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      I godhonestly don't know what games to look forwards to, and please don't bring up Cyberpunk 2077
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      2. BigGuyCIA
        BigGuyCIA
        Civ 6 is pretty great now. Prefer it over 5 but mainly because I'm sick of the art deco UI theme.
        Nov 3, 2020
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      3. Alphons
        Alphons
        Two previous Expeditions games are Conquistador and Vikings. Fun tactical encounters mixed with a good amount of choice&consequence in a really interesting settings (games take a few liberties with the history).
        Nov 3, 2020
      4. zegh8578
        zegh8578
        I'm looking forward to Gran Turismo 7
        Nov 3, 2020
    12. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Microsoft buying Fallout doesn't change nothing we are all still fucked. In other news, I wish I was dead every day.
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    13. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      I was looking at Modiphius Fallout Warfare game again. I am so disappointed that this thing is based on Bethesda's crap.
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      2. KingArthur
        KingArthur
        Fallout Tabletop should’ve been West Coast. #changemymind
        Aug 2, 2020
      3. Atomic Postman
        Atomic Postman
        As if it'd be anything else. The tabletop RPG system is even worse. 2d20 instead of 1d100 and they're going to simplify skills
        Aug 2, 2020
      4. Atomic Postman
        Atomic Postman
        Why on earth you'd want to lobotomize the RPG features for a tabletop audience with an original system that is perfectly applicable to dice rolls in the first place I don't know
        Aug 2, 2020
    14. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Dammit, I have been waiting for two hours now for that damn plumber to come, and I really need to go. I already missed buying groceries.
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      2. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        The toilet was blocked. Think it happened because of toilet paper, I was having a case of severe runs during this week.
        The plumber did eventually show up and the issue was solved within ten minutes.
        All that was needed was a plunger which I of course did not have.
        Jul 27, 2020
      3. TorontoReign
        TorontoReign
        That is kinda something you need on hand to save yourself money in situations like that. It is also why in the country you have a trashcan to throw away those piles of shit paper you were flushing down the drain.
        Jul 27, 2020
      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        The plumber is part of the services the organization provides that I rent the apartment from so costs are at least not my problem.
        But having a clogged up toilet is a real pain.
        Heh definitely not going to save up the shit paper here.
        Jul 27, 2020
    15. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Great, delivery service screws up with a package two weeks ago, and instead of trying again like they promised they sent it back.
      1. TorontoReign
        TorontoReign
        My chameleons bugs mostly arrived dead because they were sitting at the post office instead of being delivered.
        Jun 25, 2020
    16. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Really tempted to buy C&C Remastered but I don't want to sign up for an EA account.
    17. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Question: what is the best place these days to check for new PC games news? Which place is still relatively honest and cuck free?
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      2. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        You know what I mean, pandering to the social political activists, feminists, etc.
        Jun 14, 2020
      3. Walpknut
        Walpknut
        O, you turned into one of those people...
        Jun 14, 2020
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      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Okay I do not want to sound like that either, I want reviews that don't pander to anyone, pro or against okay?
        Neutral reviews, games on their own merits.
        I honestly don't want to discuss or read about politics.
        Jun 14, 2020
    18. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Does anyone here know of any software that can upscale a small image but without quality loss?
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      2. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        May 22, 2020
      3. Walpknut
        Walpknut
        May 22, 2020
      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Ah dammit, I see what you mean. It will probably not do any better with those old book covers I talked about.
        I genuine wish the original prints were still available.
        May 22, 2020
    19. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Damn, I suffer from mandela effect, I could swear this crappy cartoon called Power Team had a certain episode I wanted to see again.
      1. TorontoReign
        TorontoReign
        It all blends together at some point. I find myself recalling conversations from twenty years ago while playing games that relate to the exchange.
        May 15, 2020
      2. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Well it is really annoying as I have been looking for that episode ever since I downloaded the whole show.
        BTW did you know there was a high demand for accordion repair technicians during the 90s?
        May 15, 2020
      3. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        The adds during the show told me so.
        Also really weird to see old promos for the Simpsons Season 1 again along with promos for Alf.
        May 15, 2020
    20. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Occasionally I have this urge to collect old games again despite that I know that it is just a waste of money.
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      2. TorontoReign
        TorontoReign
        Yeah if it is about filling a whole you might want to find something else to put in there.
        May 8, 2020
      3. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Indeed, something really feels like the "missing piece" rather than another infatuation.
        It were these W&W games I wanted to get but damn are they expensive and I hate getting stuff that just collects dust.
        May 8, 2020
      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
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    Oct 23, 1979 (Age: 41)
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