The Dutch Ghost

Go for a good jog. Eat better and stay on schedule. Don't allow yourself to get swept up in it too often. Hang out with friends of find a book or show you like.

Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and try again.

something that always helps me is to set small, very short-term goals which aren't super hard to get to but aren't a big deal if you don't: wake up at such-and-such a time, have two or three little things to get done, be in bed by a reasonable hour

Make sure the goal is something you won't fuck up though or you reinforce that failure mindset. Stop doing that by the way. Since I have known you you do nothing but put yourself down.

What matters is that you gave her a good life for as long as you could here

I personally believe in an afterlife, but even if there's nothing after death I'm sure she left this world happy, knowing that you care about her.

Right now I just miss her so much. As she was no longer able to jump any more she no longer slept at the end of my bed, greeting me when I woke up.
And now I don't find her on the back of the couch, windowsill, or under a table any more.

Rather late with responding because of my usual bullshit (I'm great at that).
I have been in therapy on and off over the years, and it has not helped me that much.
One of the frustrations is that I always asked to lower my expectations and accept my life as it is.
As my life is mediocre and pointless, what is there to embrace?

Being dead would actually be an "upgrade", as even those few hopes I have that keep me going on will be off my mind, along with my frustrations, memories, reminder that this is it.

I would reccomend at least trying therapy again if you really are at such a low point, and quite frankly getting medicated if you aren't already - there's a stigma but the stuff is there for people who really need it, and someone I know who has gone on antidepressants has been reporting really wonderful results.

Perhaps some people really have been overrating these titles because of nostalgia, but I also don't think that they should be considered "terrible" either.
They're just "average", mostly because the game is very shallow and repetitive.

You want to commit suicide because Interplay Fallout is gone?
Just play a 3d platformer instead.

I do not want to kill myself because Iplay is gone. Fuck Herve and Fargo.
I feel frustrated because I can not accomplish anything on an equal level despite wanting so much to do so.

Lol Bethesda fanboys will read too much into the shitty Bethesda Fallouts.

I wish it would summon some ungodly horror that would drag them all into another dimension along with Bethesda itself.

REMEMBER LOVECRAFT WE PUT LOVECRAFT IN THE GAME BECAUSE WE REMEMBERED LOVECRAFT.

I apologize for the drama I may have caused as that was not my intention.

Great to hear it. Has your vet suggested anything?

Not really other than continue giving her the pills I am giving her now, and monitor her condition.
The weird thing is; she has started eating again.

It's so thin veiled that is trying so hard to be "controversial" just for the purpose of getting views, and hence get ad revenue. It's pathetic and shameful.

Specially when the article does such a piss poor job explaining anything, and skims so much from each game to make its "points".

Now that is a fucking work if I ever seen one. everything Norzan said is correct and that is just some rage bait article with the goal of attracting fallout turbonerds to harass the author on social media. jokes on them, there are no more fallout tubronerds, they all died.

Fallout 1&2 are worst then Fallout 76... This is a joke, right?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CLnZxT87ZEI (0:46)

While I would like there to be references and some links to FO1, 2, and FNV, the idea is to create a setting with its own factions and organizations. So no NCR or BOS, but instead Lone Star and Followers of the ATLANTIS.

I wanna see Fallout Pirates! like those dudes from Water World.

If possible I would like there to be water themed raiders, and yes I had something like the Smokers in mind. They would be harassing the prospectors from the drowned city.

NV is still respected enough by fans to be accepted as canon.

I feel the Van Buren documents leave a more consistent and interesting world than NV at the end of the day.

Hello all, sorry for not responding
Aurelius, that is also what I sort of have. I like FNV but I feel that VB would have been a better continuation and place to continue from.
To much was cut to fit in FNV.

Civ 6 is pretty great now. Prefer it over 5 but mainly because I'm sick of the art deco UI theme.

Two previous Expeditions games are Conquistador and Vikings. Fun tactical encounters mixed with a good amount of choice&consequence in a really interesting settings (games take a few liberties with the history).

I'm looking forward to Gran Turismo 7

Fallout Tabletop should’ve been West Coast. #changemymind

As if it'd be anything else. The tabletop RPG system is even worse. 2d20 instead of 1d100 and they're going to simplify skills

Why on earth you'd want to lobotomize the RPG features for a tabletop audience with an original system that is perfectly applicable to dice rolls in the first place I don't know

The toilet was blocked. Think it happened because of toilet paper, I was having a case of severe runs during this week.
The plumber did eventually show up and the issue was solved within ten minutes.
All that was needed was a plunger which I of course did not have.

That is kinda something you need on hand to save yourself money in situations like that. It is also why in the country you have a trashcan to throw away those piles of shit paper you were flushing down the drain.

The plumber is part of the services the organization provides that I rent the apartment from so costs are at least not my problem.
But having a clogged up toilet is a real pain.
Heh definitely not going to save up the shit paper here.

My chameleons bugs mostly arrived dead because they were sitting at the post office instead of being delivered.

You know what I mean, pandering to the social political activists, feminists, etc.

O, you turned into one of those people...

Okay I do not want to sound like that either, I want reviews that don't pander to anyone, pro or against okay?
Neutral reviews, games on their own merits.
I honestly don't want to discuss or read about politics.

This is an example of an image I would like to scale up. (needs to rotated a little) https://sta.sh/014d290sa81d

https://imgur.com/Q2xoR61
This would be the result even with AI unfortunately.

Ah dammit, I see what you mean. It will probably not do any better with those old book covers I talked about.
I genuine wish the original prints were still available.

It all blends together at some point. I find myself recalling conversations from twenty years ago while playing games that relate to the exchange.

Well it is really annoying as I have been looking for that episode ever since I downloaded the whole show.
BTW did you know there was a high demand for accordion repair technicians during the 90s?

The adds during the show told me so.
Also really weird to see old promos for the Simpsons Season 1 again along with promos for Alf.

Yeah if it is about filling a whole you might want to find something else to put in there.

Indeed, something really feels like the "missing piece" rather than another infatuation.
It were these W&W games I wanted to get but damn are they expensive and I hate getting stuff that just collects dust.

I think this article kind of sums up my feelings on my desire for retro collecting https://www.eurogamer.net/articles/2012-09-12-crippled-by-nostalgia-the-fraud-of-retro-gaming