The Dutch Ghost

@The Dutch Ghost Well...i mean gaming burnout is popular term about when you being gamer for like 5 years and so but gaming become rather stale. Then you just being totally not impressed with anything, like almost to the point of chore. Just google it, lots of people already making statement about it and the solution apparently.

Maybe Toront. I actually could still pull off BCR2 as I wrote in the gaming thread, and I managed to pull of Dread after a while so they aren't completely gone.
But it is not what it used to be. I am for example average to terrible now at Sonic games

@eissa, I have yet to look up what gaming burnout is, but I had a quick glimpse and I definitely recognized a symptom; sitting behind a game but not enjoying and feeling that you should be doing something else instead.
Will get back to you once I have read some more about it.

https://downloads.khinsider.com/game-soundtracks/album/bionic-commando-rearmed-2/18%2520Heat%2520Wave%2520%2528BCR2%2520Remix%2529.mp3

Anyone who says cats are inactive or not social or any such have never truly interacted with a cat. I could teach my cat nifty tricks by demonstrating them to her *once* - but ONLY if she had a pre-existing interest in the subject. Cats will soak up information *like that*

I would love to teach her and Fizz more tricks but I don't know how to start with it, and I have a tendency to quickly loose focus myself.

Some cats like playing like that. My cat plays with live mice and makes them dead due to me training him by throwing those at him. Also the string mouse toys where you dangle it.

Not saying you should pirate it of course.

I think you should.

It is not very honest but I have indeed also considered that.
And I did try out an emulator version but my current rig doesn't want to cooperate.

And earlier this week I also ruined a cooking pan while warming up beans.

I am reminded of an old sitcom gag, based on a beer commercial slogan.
"Then you know its Miller time."
Will if I drunk alcohol I sure could have gone for a drink.

It felt almost fucking planned.
If some TV show host came out of a van when I came back from the police and told me I was on some comedy gag show, I would have strangled him on the spot.

And thanks Hardboiled Android and SquidWard

For my part, I saw Oblivion in theaters. Hated it, bored out of my mind. It took Edge of Tomorrow to redeem Cruise in my eyes

Oh, guess I should see that one as well.
I would not say that Oblivion is brilliant, but I liked a couple of ideas.
Main issue IMO was that it was so damn slow sometimes.

Because of your depression. Are you on anti depressants?

Oh, I never responded.
Yeah, I am on this new medicine for several weeks now, but I have not taking it in steadily.

Then it won't work.

And this also costs me twenty-five euros which for me is not an expense I try to make daily.

COVID you think?

Nah, I expect it is a cold. Always have been susceptible to those during fall.
Haven't really had a serious bout of flu since my teens.
Results are in; negative.

It's not foolish to hope for the future because it takes that mindset to make good things happen. Be realistic and set small goals for yourself. Take care of yourself and take a shower every day it helps.

God dammit. I have some of those days again that nothing seems to want to work in my head, including writing PMs.
And when I see articles about people I look up to who have achieved a lot, I feel so overwhelmed by despair.

I could have done much today, but instead because I felt 'tired' again I spend most of the time just lounging behind my stupid computer doing didly squat instead of practicing Python.

I have been trying for days now to give you a proper response, but nothing wants to come up in my damn mind.
That is one of the reasons why I am so pissed at myself; that my mind is always so incredibly slow and lacking.
But I cut myself because I hate myself.

But you wouldn't be such an enjoyable poster to read if that was true. Hope you get someone professional to talk to and get better.

It has been a week now since I last cut myself, I think.
But not because I feel better. More because the depression seems to be in respite.
But it will be back again, that is guaranteed.

Please seek medical help. I had a brother go through this and I hate to see someone else go through this too, even if the person's a stranger.

I have talked with a doctor about my problems, and I have sought contact with a therapist. But therapy won't start for several more months because of a waiting list.
But I feel that it is absolutely pointless as I become older and it becomes clear things will not be better.

It gladdens me more than you can know to know that you're seeking help, Ghost. Hang in there, really sucks about the waiting time.

Go for a good jog. Eat better and stay on schedule. Don't allow yourself to get swept up in it too often. Hang out with friends of find a book or show you like.

Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and try again.

something that always helps me is to set small, very short-term goals which aren't super hard to get to but aren't a big deal if you don't: wake up at such-and-such a time, have two or three little things to get done, be in bed by a reasonable hour

Make sure the goal is something you won't fuck up though or you reinforce that failure mindset. Stop doing that by the way. Since I have known you you do nothing but put yourself down.

What matters is that you gave her a good life for as long as you could here

I personally believe in an afterlife, but even if there's nothing after death I'm sure she left this world happy, knowing that you care about her.

Right now I just miss her so much. As she was no longer able to jump any more she no longer slept at the end of my bed, greeting me when I woke up.
And now I don't find her on the back of the couch, windowsill, or under a table any more.

Rather late with responding because of my usual bullshit (I'm great at that).
I have been in therapy on and off over the years, and it has not helped me that much.
One of the frustrations is that I always asked to lower my expectations and accept my life as it is.
As my life is mediocre and pointless, what is there to embrace?

Being dead would actually be an "upgrade", as even those few hopes I have that keep me going on will be off my mind, along with my frustrations, memories, reminder that this is it.

I would reccomend at least trying therapy again if you really are at such a low point, and quite frankly getting medicated if you aren't already - there's a stigma but the stuff is there for people who really need it, and someone I know who has gone on antidepressants has been reporting really wonderful results.

Perhaps some people really have been overrating these titles because of nostalgia, but I also don't think that they should be considered "terrible" either.
They're just "average", mostly because the game is very shallow and repetitive.

You want to commit suicide because Interplay Fallout is gone?
Just play a 3d platformer instead.

I do not want to kill myself because Iplay is gone. Fuck Herve and Fargo.
I feel frustrated because I can not accomplish anything on an equal level despite wanting so much to do so.

Lol Bethesda fanboys will read too much into the shitty Bethesda Fallouts.

I wish it would summon some ungodly horror that would drag them all into another dimension along with Bethesda itself.

REMEMBER LOVECRAFT WE PUT LOVECRAFT IN THE GAME BECAUSE WE REMEMBERED LOVECRAFT.