The Dutch Ghost
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The Dutch Ghost

Grouchy old man of NMA, Male, 42, from Leeuwarden, The Netherlands

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I have had a temper problem with gaming when it becomes hard. But recently I was genuinely angry because of difficulty or puzzles. Mar 16, 2022

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    1. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      I have had a temper problem with gaming when it becomes hard. But recently I was genuinely angry because of difficulty or puzzles.
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      2. eissa
        eissa
        @The Dutch Ghost Well...i mean gaming burnout is popular term about when you being gamer for like 5 years and so but gaming become rather stale. Then you just being totally not impressed with anything, like almost to the point of chore. Just google it, lots of people already making statement about it and the solution apparently.
        Mar 18, 2022
      3. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Maybe Toront. I actually could still pull off BCR2 as I wrote in the gaming thread, and I managed to pull of Dread after a while so they aren't completely gone.
        But it is not what it used to be. I am for example average to terrible now at Sonic games
        Mar 19, 2022
      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        @eissa, I have yet to look up what gaming burnout is, but I had a quick glimpse and I definitely recognized a symptom; sitting behind a game but not enjoying and feeling that you should be doing something else instead.
        Will get back to you once I have read some more about it.
        Mar 19, 2022
    2. The Dutch Ghost
    3. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Fun detail I found out about one of my cats; she likes to play fetch with a toy mice.
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      2. zegh8578
        zegh8578
        Anyone who says cats are inactive or not social or any such have never truly interacted with a cat. I could teach my cat nifty tricks by demonstrating them to her *once* - but ONLY if she had a pre-existing interest in the subject. Cats will soak up information *like that*
        Mar 5, 2022
      3. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        I would love to teach her and Fizz more tricks but I don't know how to start with it, and I have a tendency to quickly loose focus myself.
        Mar 5, 2022
      4. TorontoReign
        TorontoReign
        Some cats like playing like that. My cat plays with live mice and makes them dead due to me training him by throwing those at him. Also the string mouse toys where you dangle it.
        Mar 7, 2022
    4. Proletären
    5. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Happy new year guys
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    6. Proletären
      Proletären
      Hi! Could you create an Ashes thread in General Gaming that covers the entire series with correct links to download pages and other relevant sources of information?
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      3. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        I opened an Ashes thread but I feel that my English was a bit lacking when I wrote it.
        Perhaps I may need to rewrite some parts later.
        Jan 1, 2022
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      4. Proletären
        Proletären
        Yeah that happens to me all the time. Sometimes I just feel my English is shit. Words don't mean what I think they do, I don't know the grammar, I'm just guessing based on what sounds right.

        Even though most of what I read is in English I will never be good when it comes to writing.

        However I thought your new thread was excellent!
        Jan 1, 2022
      5. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        That is also how I sometimes feel, especially when my head feels overwhelmed with various thoughts and feelings.
        At some point I would just like to scream "Shut up! I need to think on something that is important to me, I don't need confusion right now."

        I would like to become better at English writing, or Dutch for that matter, but I can't afford classes.
        Jan 1, 2022
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    7. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Need some advice guys. I would like to get a Switch to play Metroid Dread. But if the Switch 2 is announced next year it feels like a waste.
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      2. ironmask
        ironmask
        Not saying you should pirate it of course.
        Dec 10, 2021
      3. TorontoReign
        TorontoReign
        I think you should.
        Dec 10, 2021
      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        It is not very honest but I have indeed also considered that.
        And I did try out an emulator version but my current rig doesn't want to cooperate.
        Dec 10, 2021
    8. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Yesterday must have been TDG torture day, because everything that could go wrong, went wrong.
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      2. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        And earlier this week I also ruined a cooking pan while warming up beans.
        Nov 5, 2021
      3. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        I am reminded of an old sitcom gag, based on a beer commercial slogan.
        "Then you know its Miller time."
        Will if I drunk alcohol I sure could have gone for a drink.
        Nov 5, 2021
      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        It felt almost fucking planned.
        If some TV show host came out of a van when I came back from the police and told me I was on some comedy gag show, I would have strangled him on the spot.
        Nov 5, 2021
    9. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Last Saturday was my birthday. I had wanted to post a message in the birthday topic but I don't think it has been updated since my last post
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      3. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        And thanks Hardboiled Android and SquidWard
        Oct 25, 2021
      4. Hardboiled Android
        Hardboiled Android
        For my part, I saw Oblivion in theaters. Hated it, bored out of my mind. It took Edge of Tomorrow to redeem Cruise in my eyes
        Oct 25, 2021
      5. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Oh, guess I should see that one as well.
        I would not say that Oblivion is brilliant, but I liked a couple of ideas.
        Main issue IMO was that it was so damn slow sometimes.
        Oct 25, 2021
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    10. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      I picked up a copy of Metroid Dread yesterday. At least I can say now that I have it, but I really don't feel like playing it any time soon.
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      2. TorontoReign
        TorontoReign
        Because of your depression. Are you on anti depressants?
        Oct 9, 2021
      3. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Oh, I never responded.
        Yeah, I am on this new medicine for several weeks now, but I have not taking it in steadily.
        Oct 17, 2021
      4. TorontoReign
        TorontoReign
        Then it won't work.
        Oct 17, 2021
    11. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Crap, I had a bit of a fever last week, and yesterday I had a runny noose and had to sneeze a lot. Have to cancel an appointment for a test.
      1. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        And this also costs me twenty-five euros which for me is not an expense I try to make daily.
        Sep 30, 2021
      2. Hardboiled Android
        Hardboiled Android
        COVID you think?
        Sep 30, 2021
      3. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Nah, I expect it is a cold. Always have been susceptible to those during fall.
        Haven't really had a serious bout of flu since my teens.
        Results are in; negative.
        Oct 1, 2021
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    12. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Felt depressed again because of frustration that I can not draw like my favorite artists, even the one I now hate and wish suffering to.
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      2. TorontoReign
        TorontoReign
        It's not foolish to hope for the future because it takes that mindset to make good things happen. Be realistic and set small goals for yourself. Take care of yourself and take a shower every day it helps.
        Sep 10, 2021
      3. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        God dammit. I have some of those days again that nothing seems to want to work in my head, including writing PMs.
        And when I see articles about people I look up to who have achieved a lot, I feel so overwhelmed by despair.
        Sep 22, 2021
      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        I could have done much today, but instead because I felt 'tired' again I spend most of the time just lounging behind my stupid computer doing didly squat instead of practicing Python.
        Sep 22, 2021
    13. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Welp, I cut myself again yesterday, for my damn flawed body failing me as it always does. I would like this to be the last year.
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      2. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        I have been trying for days now to give you a proper response, but nothing wants to come up in my damn mind.
        That is one of the reasons why I am so pissed at myself; that my mind is always so incredibly slow and lacking.
        But I cut myself because I hate myself.
        Aug 30, 2021
      3. Alphons
        Alphons
        But you wouldn't be such an enjoyable poster to read if that was true. Hope you get someone professional to talk to and get better.
        Aug 31, 2021
      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        It has been a week now since I last cut myself, I think.
        But not because I feel better. More because the depression seems to be in respite.
        But it will be back again, that is guaranteed.
        Sep 7, 2021
    14. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      I have been beating myself and cutting myself these last several weeks, including yesterday and today for so being stupid and incompetent.
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      2. ironmask
        ironmask
        Please seek medical help. I had a brother go through this and I hate to see someone else go through this too, even if the person's a stranger.
        Aug 2, 2021
      3. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        I have talked with a doctor about my problems, and I have sought contact with a therapist. But therapy won't start for several more months because of a waiting list.
        But I feel that it is absolutely pointless as I become older and it becomes clear things will not be better.
        Aug 25, 2021
      4. Hardboiled Android
        Hardboiled Android
        It gladdens me more than you can know to know that you're seeking help, Ghost. Hang in there, really sucks about the waiting time.
        Aug 25, 2021
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    15. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Feeling tense and overwhelmed with despair after a nap I couldn't prevent because of yesterday. Feel like I am in fight or flight mode.
      1. Morgan_
        Morgan_
        Go for a good jog. Eat better and stay on schedule. Don't allow yourself to get swept up in it too often. Hang out with friends of find a book or show you like.
        Jul 21, 2021
    16. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      And I successfully wasted another complete day. It is a fucking talent, the one thing I am good at.
      1. TorontoReign
        TorontoReign
        Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and try again.
        Jul 11, 2021
      2. Hardboiled Android
        Hardboiled Android
        something that always helps me is to set small, very short-term goals which aren't super hard to get to but aren't a big deal if you don't: wake up at such-and-such a time, have two or three little things to get done, be in bed by a reasonable hour
        Jul 11, 2021
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      3. TorontoReign
        TorontoReign
        Make sure the goal is something you won't fuck up though or you reinforce that failure mindset. Stop doing that by the way. Since I have known you you do nothing but put yourself down.
        Jul 11, 2021
    17. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      I had to have my cat put to sleep after she has been sick for weeks. In a sense she was already gone, but it was still a hard decision.
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      2. Hardboiled Android
        Hardboiled Android
        What matters is that you gave her a good life for as long as you could here
        Jul 3, 2021
      3. Alphons
        Alphons
        I personally believe in an afterlife, but even if there's nothing after death I'm sure she left this world happy, knowing that you care about her.
        Jul 4, 2021
      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Right now I just miss her so much. As she was no longer able to jump any more she no longer slept at the end of my bed, greeting me when I woke up.
        And now I don't find her on the back of the couch, windowsill, or under a table any more.
        Jul 4, 2021
    18. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      There are days such as the last couple that I honestly wish that Death would stop playing hide and seek and just claim me.
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      2. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Rather late with responding because of my usual bullshit (I'm great at that).
        I have been in therapy on and off over the years, and it has not helped me that much.
        One of the frustrations is that I always asked to lower my expectations and accept my life as it is.
        As my life is mediocre and pointless, what is there to embrace?
        Jul 1, 2021
      3. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Being dead would actually be an "upgrade", as even those few hopes I have that keep me going on will be off my mind, along with my frustrations, memories, reminder that this is it.
        Jul 1, 2021
      4. Hardboiled Android
        Hardboiled Android
        I would reccomend at least trying therapy again if you really are at such a low point, and quite frankly getting medicated if you aren't already - there's a stigma but the stuff is there for people who really need it, and someone I know who has gone on antidepressants has been reporting really wonderful results.
        Jul 1, 2021
    19. The Dutch Ghost
      The Dutch Ghost
      Ugh, I keep thinking about how I would fix FOBOS1 and 2, and make them enjoyable. Mainly because I feel sad.
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      2. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        Perhaps some people really have been overrating these titles because of nostalgia, but I also don't think that they should be considered "terrible" either.
        They're just "average", mostly because the game is very shallow and repetitive.
        May 10, 2021
      3. Morgan_
        Morgan_
        You want to commit suicide because Interplay Fallout is gone?
        Just play a 3d platformer instead.
        Jun 27, 2021
      4. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        I do not want to kill myself because Iplay is gone. Fuck Herve and Fargo.
        I feel frustrated because I can not accomplish anything on an equal level despite wanting so much to do so.
        Jun 27, 2021
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      1. Norzan
        Norzan
        Lol Bethesda fanboys will read too much into the shitty Bethesda Fallouts.
        Apr 22, 2021
      2. The Dutch Ghost
        The Dutch Ghost
        I wish it would summon some ungodly horror that would drag them all into another dimension along with Bethesda itself.
        Apr 22, 2021
      3. TheGM
        TheGM
        REMEMBER LOVECRAFT WE PUT LOVECRAFT IN THE GAME BECAUSE WE REMEMBERED LOVECRAFT.
        Apr 22, 2021
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