Then don't. Forgive me, then.. as it seems our views on writing differ. To me, fanfiction is not merely the means to an end, but a part of a winding road up the mountain. It's a journey of the mind... and like mountain climbing, the frame of mind is essential to success. Focusing on the end result too much will just build up the Writer's Block.
Just relax and enjoy the journey, sir.'
I am doing this for my leisure, and correcting voluminous fuck-ups far from amounts to leisure. '
Ah... but if you don't see and fix those fuck-ups, what's to prevent you from doing it again in the future?
Remember the great blissful rush when you're 'in the zone', and you can churn out an entire chapter in an hour or so? Once experienced by a creative soul, it must seek to duplicate that sense. But writing is an interactive process.. the result of your mind will echo the stirrings in you heart. This is the essence of art, is it not?
Art is the creative process.
Fanfiction, or writing in general.. is art. And it is an appreciative medium. The reader, when experiencing your work, will gather that prickly feeling that signifies that HERE is something that the writer poured his being into. Here is something which was made to be the best it could be, because nothing less than utter perfection will suffice for the artisan.
We, as writers have a responsibility to the reader. It won't do to base self-esteem on others' responses, yes... but unless a person actually strives to improve and accepts that there are countless ways to learn, then that person will ultimately not find the happiness inherent in the writing sense. Anything not done to the best of one's own ability is better left undone.
Writing fanfiction is digital amphetamine. Creation from nothing, it's a wonderful rush. But the exultant spirit is only equal to the effort placed in crafting the piece.
Leisure? The storyteller is happy by making others happy. By expanding horizons. By moulding people who live and laugh in his imagination, and sharing that vision with others.
Sure enough, I'd get around to fixing it eventually, but you wouldn't see it for a while, that's for sure.Take your time... the important things is while we are at the end our own greatest critics, there are still things we can't see... simply because our perceptions are naturally different from the reader's. Beta-ing is a must. No fanfic reaches perfection on the very first try. None. Ever. This goes to every form of creative writing.
Given that I'm a teenager, and far from what one would call responsible, it's surprising that I've committed to writing the story at all. And? Since when has youth become a crutch? It's a stereotype.. teenagers have short attention spans, lazy.. best kept in a barrel, and fed sandwiches through a small hole at the top. *grin* It's a stereotype.. which has been proven to be false many a time.
Anyways, the point here is that fanfiction is a learning experience that teaches about life, camaraderie and logical thought... it's good that you're a-penning words and worlds. Don't stop. Open yourself to new points of view.
It's a refreshing experience.
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