Ultimately it's for the best though. When a dog can't be a dog or a cat can't be a cat anymore, leaving them suffering is only for you and not for them.
Lapke was not able to be a cat for quite some time now. It all started last year, soon after I had to have the other put down.
She had developed problems with her thyroid, and as a result was increasingly hungry.
Unfortunate she had a bad reaction to the meds I gave her.
At least I kept my word when I said that when it comes to the well being of my cats, I would put it over my own desires and greed.
And I have proven that in the last twelve months with the visits to the vet and the amount of special food that I got for them to make them eat again.
I know I put an end to pain, she would not have made it to the next week.
In that regard there was never any decision other than; continue to make her suffer and die slowly, or give her a peaceful death. There was no third option.
But it's moments like these that make me wonder; is there anything more? Will she be waiting for me?