Edge386 said:Sander,
i wanted to send you a PM because i knew in my heart you were sharing something profound with me. I felt it intensely, and made it obvious by exposing myself (with your help) as a blind fool. You had much credibility in your approach, and much discredibility which (now that i have had time to think about it some more) i was reflecting. I pointed the finger at you, essentially trying to debunk your character with credibility, much like you did for me. This in turn resulted in me pointing three more fingers back at myself. I held you in some regard as an enemy with whom i must challenge. But there is great benefit to having feelings toward someone as enemies. I believe the benefit is to learn about ourselves and evolve. Yes, i'm a very emotional person of which i am grateful for. Out of blind fear i had tried to deny this 'emo' side of myself by turning back from that argument and trying to pull you off your pedestal from which you presented it. In truth, i was only able to remove myself from the pedestal and further observe the situation.
Through this interaction with you, i have gained a nice bit of knowledge about myself. You reflected upon my actions which i could do nothing more than reflect upon your reflections. This sort of behavior seems to be a paradox of life. That essentially everything is just a reflection of a reflection, infinity.
Yes, i know i am getting into 'metaphysical bullshit' as someone had put it later in the thread, but i'm working on not limiting myself to only my own perspective. I believe there is eternal knowledge that we can achieve through interactions like this. To claim peace is the only way to live, may be true in another dimension, but i do not exist in that dimension and must come to terms with that.
What i am trying to say is, thank you for humbling me and kicking the pedestal from beneath my feet. Sure, it's somewhat painful, but what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. I'll sure think twice before trying to step up on a soap box and throw stones again. If i do, i hope someone like you comes along to bring me back to reality once more. I'm very serious about this.
You asked why i bothered stating my impatience to change the world. It was because i knew of my impatience, but i did not fully understand how rediculous and immature it made me behave. Without seemingly knowing, you assisted in my human development. It's all madness i say, but i wouldn't have it any other way. Thanks again Sander, for your participating in the argument. I hope in some way i have also helped you develope as a human, because, if we can't learn from each other, what is the point of interaction? I admit, i still have much to learn about myself. It's almost as if i must destroy my credibility so that i can start rebuilding it with better materials. Sort of like the human race seems to be destroying itself to rebuild itself.
I am sending this to you in PM because since you were the first to show, you should be the first to know. I will indeed make this statement in the thread, and i'm curious if i can use this PM as my public statement to you. I'm asking for your permission.
Take care.
-Chris
Sander said:Hey Chris,
Yeah, you have my permission to use this as your public statement.
My apologies if I seemed too harsh, though. Being cynical sometimes does that to a man. Heh.
Take care,
Sander
Atomic Cowboy,
Very strong feelings coming from you there. I know that your statement is at least %90 false. I am in no way someone who works to serve only myself and screw people over. Can we take this interaction between Sander and myself as a good starting point to continue intelligent and civilized conversation in this thread now that the shit flinging is out of the way?
Take care.