I broke up with the girl I love

[monsharen]

:!: --- this post is filled with irrational rambling --- :!:


Yeah, I did. I believe I truly hit the bottom last tuesday. In a retrospective I can say that was kind of stupid. In a period of 5 years I guess we might have fought like one or two times... for like 5 mins max (because it's all about how much you fight right?). Now I'm getting used to 0 mins of talking to her.

We matched... at least a lot of people told me so.. like everyone.

I'm not even going to start talking about the sex life.. I'll leave that to the order...

My argument for doing this was that I "wasn't sure if I could marry that gal".. now WTF! I got to learn to just live. I had a great fucking time. My life ain't over but that doesn't mean the rest cannot suck!

things did not compute.



there was some small things I found annoying over the years but as far as I know I won't find a single person I won't find any errors on.. I mean, I'm the perfect one in my universe and look at me!

randomized foo fighters - best of you... great... "is someone getting the best.. the best.. the best of you..". I don't want to know.

If I was a fan the shit would be flying all around me...


I'm not crying over this. Just pouring my can of thoughts. I have to let it out or I will go postal.. so expect some weirdo post from now on

and yeah, I managed three days of heavy drinking without ending up stealing stuff. So I guess I'm doing pretty well.


My name is Monsharen and I'm single. :idea:

 

[Lukus]

So why don't you hook up with her again?

And oy, I think sex is the most important part of a relationship. If the sex is good, the other stuff will often work itself out. And sure, intellect takes a strong second place, but intellect without good sex is completely worthless, so the sex ultimately wins.

 

[monsharen]

So why don't you hook up with her again?

We'll she kind of made the rules when she said "don't call me again"... so I'm kind of waiting for something to happen rather than pushing her atm. Hopefully she'll realize that what we had was kind of good and worth keeping.

If she haven't contacted me in like a week I might try to pick up the phone again. it just sucks to get "I don't want to talk to you" smacked in the face (even though I kind of deserve that).

but on the other hand, this might be good for both of us... foolish attempt to fool myself.

edit: she's a smart girl and the sex was great, so basicly quite a catch.

 

[alec]

Wait: you were together for over 5 years, you tell her to go fuck herself because you can't imagine marrying the cunt, and now you're whining like a schoolboy who got his lunchmoney kicked out of his backpocket by three bullies and a queer? Sheesh. Kids these days. They don't understand anything about female logic.

Call her. She is waiting for you ('cause it's you who broke up, mongrel) and even more so, she is waiting for you to cry your guts out in front of her, so she can witness what a pathetic configuration of carbon based molecules you really are. Tell her you were an asshole and an idiot and a fool to even think stupid stuff like breaking up and moving on and what have you, and tell her that you would do anything, anything to make it up to her and get her presence back into your miserable life.

It'll cost you (flowers, restaurant, lingerie), but trust me: you will be shoving her meat over your talliwhacker in no time.

P.S. For your convenience, I have underlined the parts that you should say out loud to her. Do refer to yourself, though, or matters might get worse.

 

[Schuljunge]

You should definatley hear on alec. He is a wise man, exspecially for the women-topic´s.

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My name is Monsharen and I'm single. :idea:

My name is Schuljunge and i´m single, too
unfortunatley i am not gay.

 

[Lukus]

Alec is spot on. Though I might consider going to her in person instead of calling her, so she can't slam the phone on you before you get to say your stuff. If she yells "go away!" through her door, you'll be able to initiate your I'm-sorry-speech anyway, and she might just open. Plus, you can give her the puppy eyes.

 

[Wooz]

Or you could, y'know, avoid being a suck-up, screw the deal and get on with your life, to get laid in a week with some other chick.

 

[Duckman]

Avoiding to comment like some of the people prior to myself, I know how you feel man.

I broke up with a girlfriend I had for 3 years, and it was a serious relationship. Thoughts of getting married didn't really put me off or anything, and we continued going out.

Then just before we broke up, she told me that about 6 months ago, she had fucked some guy who I had known since I was 6, and he WAS a good friend. She told me this to get everything out in the open before we actually thought of married, or engaged.

Stupid bitch, it fucked up everything, and now I live in utter contempt of the world



ANyway man, I share your pain, and all you gotta try and do is avoid talking to her regularly, as talking can make stuff feel like you are still going out, hence making it more painful when you come to realisation you can't be with her.

But hey, that can't stop you from trying.

 

[alec]

Then just before we broke up, she told me that about 6 months ago, she had fucked some guy who I had known since I was 6, and he WAS a good friend. She told me this to get everything out in the open before we actually thought of married, or engaged.

Stupid bitch, it fucked up everything, and now I live in utter contempt of the world

Been there, done that, got the scars.
Now, though, at age 30, I am as prepared as I'll ever be for such small tragedies.
See: if you don't want to be the sucker at the end of a relationship, you should take the lead from day one and fuck around as much as possible.
"Yesterday I had sex with someone else, alec..."
"Like d'uh, bitch. Isn't that what we were supposed to do to keep this thing exciting and new and what have you?"
You can't loose when you play it like that.

 

[Jarno Mikkola]

Anyway man, I share your pain, and all you gotta try and do is avoid talking to her regularly, as talking can make stuff feel like you are still going out, hence making it more painful when you come to realisation you can't be with her.

This is a sound advise, what you need to do is to stop talking to her, and some night when you find out that she goes out, you need to get her insanely drunk, with the help of a friend that you can trust, and then do the dirty deed with her, after with you will say that she was begging and pla pla pla. Ahh, the reconciliation sex is thebest.

 

[alec]

This is a sound advise, what you need to do is to stop talking to her, and some night when you find out that she goes out, you need to get her insanely drunk, with the help of a friend that you can trust, and then do the dirty deed with her, after with you will say that she was begging and pla pla pla. Ahh, the reconciliation sex is thebest.

Uhm... what you're describing, sounds more like rape.

You're disturbing in more than one way.



I'll shut up now.

 

[monsharen]

yeah that sounded a little "harsh" but I'll keep it in mind.

Last night I took a walk around town. That made me feel better. Empty streets and all. Then I felt like an idiot, which justifies my behavior. It all stopped though, when a strange guy all dressed in black (hoodie and all that stuff) started to follow me. Theres a killer on the loose and I figured the chance of that being him actually exsisted. soo I runned home and stared at my ceiling for a few hours then managed to get some sleep. I feel just fine.

so back on topic. I'll give her time. I deleted her on msn yesterday. That felt good.

yeah I know that dude could have been just anyone but it's more exciting to get chased by a killer. takes the mind of things.



add:
It feels like if she has died. I think this would be the feeling. Loosing someone just like that.

 

[Stock]

It all stopped though, when a strange guy all dressed in black (hoodie and all that stuff) started to follow me. Theres a killer on the loose and I figured the chance of that being him actually exsisted. soo I runned home and stared at my ceiling for a few hours then managed to get some sleep. I feel just fine.

Bah, that could've been me. Are you in Stockholm?

 

[monsharen]

Bah, that could've been me.

Are you in Stockholm?

Nope, but I frequently go there since I grew up in, and around, that place.


update: I somewhat feel like this is going to turn out fine, irrespective of the outcome.

 

[alec]

It feels like if she has died. I think this would be the feeling. Loosing someone just like that.

Yeah, although it sounds corny and sentimental, that's exactly how it feels.

Just being curious, but: can you masturbate nowadays? When my gf left me (4 years ago), I wasn't able to play with myself for over 3 months. 3 fucking months. I just couldn't get a boner anymore. Made me feel awful.

Of course, I quickly recovered my losses after those three months. But then I had a sore dick for three months. Which is bad as well.

Girls can really screw a man up.

 

[monsharen]

Yeah, although it sounds corny and sentimental, that's exactly how it feels.

Appreciate the honesty.

Just being curious, but: can you masturbate nowadays?

It's like those food addicts. I weep and get the thing over with.
Nah, when the bad mood gets to me I pass. But there are moments..

Girls can really screw a man up

Amen.

But I actually got in touch with her today. She wanted some stuff back so I met up with her at neutral ground (the univ) and got to have a small talk about it all.. She actually had a small (almost not noticeable) smile on her lips when she first saw me but tried to hide it... yeah I know her well. It made me feel all warm inside. So now it's quite good even though she told me she had to be an idiot to take me back. Victory is mine!

 

[Sander]

Congratulations.

Now you need to beware that it doesn't turn into a relationship consisting of just jealousy and spite, which is what I see happening to my dad and his girlfriend now. Quite a shame.
If she starts to respond to criticism with things along the line of 'yeah....but you broke up!' beware, because it could turn real ugly.

 

[Jarno Mikkola]

She actually had a small smile on her lips when she first saw me but tried to hide it... yeah I know her well. It made me feel all warm inside. So now it's quite good even though she told me she had to be an idiot to take me back. Victory is mine!

Yeah, the victory is your, now you'll get rid of her, real fast, too bad that she isn't dead, yet.

Are you sure that she was happy to see you, and not trying to hide the knowledge of how much she will be better with you off. "Laugh to your friends about their stupidity, it's better in the long run, than to show them your true feelings."

 

[Demonslayer]

Sorry but you were kinda dumb breaking up with a relationship of five years.

Now you'll have to find someone and redo what you did before, and kinda waste 5 years of your life.

Let's see. Fallout is incomplete, has some minor bugs and errors, did you break up with it? Did you stop loving it?

I didn't.

Now everytime you get something from her, even just a call, or a instant message in your messenger, you will feel great, kinda warm, kinda if the world moves again.

I'm speaking with experience on it, you may find other girls atractive, have a good time with some, doing you know what with some, but after that, when you reach you're room late at night, you'll still be thinking on her, nothing is going to replace those gold times you had.

Sorry to ruin your plans of forget her.
(meh...maybe you can forget, but mostly can't because they are weak (like me) and got too attached too her, good thing i could hook mine back a couple times)

 

[monsharen]

Sorry but you were kinda dumb breaking up with a relationship of five years.

Somehow I get that feeling too.

Let's see. Fallout is incomplete, has some minor bugs and errors, did you break up with it? Did you stop loving it?

Fallout as a harem of beautiful gore delight or Fallout as in Herve trying to butt fuck YOU... geez.. that relationship had its thorns but I will always remember the good times we shared together..

I'm speaking with experience on it, you may find other girls atractive, have a good time with some, doing you know what with some, but after that, when you reach you're room late at night, you'll still be thinking on her, nothing is going to replace those gold times you had.

That's what I'm afraid of but I'll wait some more and see how this turns out. This wouldn't be a problem if I could just forget about it all.

(meh...maybe you can forget, but mostly can't because they are weak (like me) and got too attached too her

I am pretty darn weak. I guess me posting here is proof of that, but I must say that I'm surprised how much it has helped me feel better.

good thing i could hook mine back a couple times)

Aha! as I previously stated, Victory is mine!



edit: Writing on a forum about my inner feelings. I will so die alone.