Occ- ok, so here’s a bit about what the war is about, and a little revelation from Stowe. Finally, something about Spengler and Logan.
IC-
The sex had been good. We had both been on edge for a long damn time, and the sex was a release. Maybe it was something more. In all my time I have yet to figure out women, and I could make little sense of Stowe. There were more attractive men. Maybe it had something to do with the fact that I was boss.
Or maybe it was desperation, because she knew what we what this was all about, at least more than I did.
These things happen, and it's foolish to look into it to far.
Her head was turned away from me, her long black hair spread out on the pillow, her body still wet with sweat under the sheets. She had been aggressive but serious, even violent. In her usual way.
I can be a sucker for a woman. It's a weakness that's gotten me in trouble before. Most women, you have sex with and it's just the night, the biological need. It's good enough and the night is over and you go your ways. Most women, knowing what I do, don't want a relationship. It's too much risk. Those who have had wanted to tie me down.
But it's not my way.
Most women don't mean much anyway.
But sometimes, rarely, you get to see something in a woman. You get to look deep into her, and see what's in her soul. Often it's ugly and wounded or damaged. Sometimes there's something fragile and warm there, something beautiful.
It doesn't happen often, but sometimes.
And if there's anything that scares me, probably even worse then those Dire hunting gluttons in the warehouse, it's that look.
Love is irrational, and it makes you do crazy shit and gets you in trouble.
Stowe was awake. She was facing away from me for a reason. Maybe because she was afraid of what I’d ask. Maybe because she was afraid of what she might say.
“You’re not going to tell me, are you?” I said.
“No. It will only complicate things.”
“Things are already complicated.” I said, let me hand trace her side, touching her skin, feeling her ribs.
“They’re crazy you know that.” She said. “Both of them. This war. They don’t even know why anymore.”
“Too much blood spilled to forgive. To much pain to let go. To much fear of looking weak.” I said.
“Excuses. It’s a habit, that’s all. There is a war because that’s what they know, and they’ve been doing it so long that’s how they live, what they eat. They need to war to survive.” She said, her voice angry.
“The generals have gotten rich…” I was starting to say.
“The generals rule because of the war, because they don’t know peace. Because the war makes them powerful. So they continue to fight each other so they, the generals can stay in power.” She said. The frustration and anger in which she spoke merely symptom of the anger she felt inside. “They live in the past, they eat because they kill. They survive on the blood they shed. They’re vampires, ghouls. They are the past that haunts us and controls us.”
“It’s not all about the past.” I said, my voice trying to be soothing, my hand trying to calm her anger.
“No, Kilrick, it is. You know. This war, the insanity of it, has reached a new level of madness. They’ve gotten desperate, they feel vulnerable now because the armies are too weak to fight as they once did, because the battle lines are stagnant. Because they could no longer kill each other with the weapons they had, they want new weapons to finish it.” She said, now turning to face me.
“But if one destroys the other, the war is over. The generals will have to change.” I said. “Maybe, for once, peace.”
“No, it’s impossible to end the war with victory. Not this way.” Said Stowe, and I could see that she had been crying. “The lines are no longer clear. What used to be Grey and Green, never really were clear distinctions. Those are just concepts, boundaries that the generals used to maintain the differences between us.”
I had seen enough outside the battle fields to know this. Ethnically and racially, there were no differences between the Greys and the Greens. There were very few differences except who was ruler. But that was heretical. The Greys and Greens defined themselves as two different tribes, two different races, one superior the other inferior. They believed in the difference because those differences sustained the rule of those at the center.
“If there were lines they are coming apart.” I said.
“No there were never any lines at all. We were never different to begin with.” Said Stowe. “The notion of racial purity is a myth and always has been. But those at the top don’t believe it. We are all brothers and sisters in one giant feuding family. The war is insane.”
“But it takes two sides to fight. One side can end it.” I said.
“That’s the biggest lie of all.” She said.
She was going to tell me everything. The moment was right that the truth would be revealed.
And then there was a knock at the door breaking the moment.
I looked at her, thinking I could hold that moment and ask the question I needed to. But then the knock came again.
“What?” I said, a bit irritated at the disturbance.
“The radio. You should hear this.” It was Rama.
I looked at Stowe but she had turned away.
I threw on a pair of trousers and a shirt and left the room with Stowe still in bed.
Outside near the pool, Edwards was working with the radio. Stokes had his fists up, but Jasmin and Deeds had their weapons drawn and were keeping everyone from the radio. Edwards was trying to work the receiver.
On the radio I could hear static and then the distinct sounds of gunfire, laser fire, plasma, explosions. And the sounds of men dieing.
“This is Spengler’s Op calling. Over. Spengler’s Op over. We need help here. Crooked Christ we’re all fucked up. The APC is shit. Some one come in. We need help here.” Said the radio operator on the other end.
Fuck you Deeds, call in the coordinates at least. You can’t just leave them out there.” Said Wolf.
“Our orders are radio silence.” Said Deeds.
“Those are Green Grunts getting wasted.” Said Edden.
“Nothin we can do about that, sister. Just back off.” Said Jasmin.
Over the radio. The radioman was losing his cool. “They’re all over the fucking place. Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ. Back up! Where the fuck are the Greens. This is their fucking job. Travers got cut in half. We can’t stop them. We need….” The voice was cut off by the sound of laser fire.
The rest of my crew looked like they would make a move for the radio.
I got between them. “Deeds is right. Back off. There’s nothing we can do.”
“They’re dieing out there, Kilrick, We’re note supposed to leave other Salvagers out to die.” Said Reik.
Edwards was by the radio. “And what can you do. If we went to help them, we’d be in the same fight as they are. If we called in our coordinates, you would be calling their killers to us. That’s why there are two missions. If one fails, it’s up to the second.”
I nodded. “Edwards is right. We can’t help them now.”
The radio came on again, and this time I recognized the voice. “Spengler here.” Said the voice. “We got hit near the Putnum 3 aquifer. Got Greys on our ass, but this was bots. Somehow we triggered the system. APC is burnt and most of my team is dead. We are breaking off and dispersing. Hopefully we can reassemble at point 134-256. Don’t come for us. Good luck. It’s a hell of a world.”
Then the radio gave a loud buzz and then settled.
My crew shook their heads and slowly moved away. Deeds and Jasmin held their position until confident that the others would make no more fight.
“So much for Spengler.” Said Deeds.
“Yeah.” Was all I could say.
Spengler had something else, that Deeds and Jasmin nor anyone else understood. But since they were keeping secrets, I felt it better to keep one of my own.
“There’s something else.” Said Edwards.
We turned to him.
“While working the radio system I found out that there is a transmission being sent from here.” Said Edwards. “But it’s a strange signal. In some kind of code.”
“Can you decipher it?” I asked.
“It’s in some kind of computer language I am unfamiliar with, and it’s real intense. A lot of data.”
Logan had been listening to the conversation while working with his laptop on some programming. “Hey, it’s not me. I’m not transmitting shit from this laptop. It’s not even wired in.”
Edwards waved a handheld electronic gizmo over Logan’s laptop. Then over Logan’s gear. Finally he waived it over Logan itself. The gizmo began a series of strange beeps and whirls.
Edwards shook his head. “No it’s not your laptop, and it’s not a radio. It’s you. Something inside you is sending the transmission.”