Eh man, drop the bullshxt. You know your not retarded as you say. You and everyone in this dump all have a mind and are doing something with it. Unlike the majority of this world you are a creator, and creativity comes from imagination and intelligence. I've never met a 'dumb' modder before and I don't think I ever will.
Don't think for a second that I am some wise guy when it comes to anything. This is just something I have had a bit of experience with and don't think you have ran into more problems than me, I can assure you I have had my share. The system, for me, has taken longer than most people to figure out. For one, like I said earlier I had no help and was not online. This is years of practice, and every time I do it now I can never fail and I get no errors (Unless I was to stoned one night, or drunk!
).I understand your frustration all too well. Don't do modding that bothers you though. Have a go, but only on occasion. Focus on what you do well, focus on what you enjoy.
On another thought, I might re-do this one day. There are sections that get a bit too general and could be a little more specific. Just got far too much on at the moment. Some pretty good ideas at the moment that involve post-apocalyptic style stuff. I think the community will like this next few releases. Loving the secrecy bullshxt! LOL!
Anyway xkcon, from what I gather from you so far your a cool guy. I think you should go listen to some heavy metal and punch a bag or something. That's how I deal with it!
Keep at it and never lesser yourself. You have something we ALL on NMA don't... YOUR MIND. Remember that.
