Waking up with severe vertigo everyday and having wild dreams, wtf?

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Travalanche

First time out of the vault
Okay, I'm a 24yr old dude that still lives with his parents and has mild Aspergers (like 50% of the people that play Fallout I'd wager) I've also been a pretty hardcore alcoholic for the last 2 years or so and go through a liter bottle of rum like every week along with a case of malt liquor. I am also pretty messed up in the head in general and tend to blatantly flirt with like every woman I meet and get subsequently denied by them 99% of the time despite having looks that I'd say resemble a 6/10 and being in better shape than 75% of Americans. I was also fired from my job last week just for showing one of my handguns to a coworker in the back of the store and somebody walked past us and reported me because she is a snitch and thinks I'm Adam Lanza's brother or something lol. I think it's partly due to the fact I've only had sex once and I'm half way to 30 years old, and when I did I couldn't finish and went for 2 hours and it was a bad experience because I only had two hours of sleep before work the next day and she was like 10 years older than me and told everyone I only had a 6 inch wangalang.

Oh, and I've been drinking a lot of water to deal with the dehydrating affect of the alcohol and applying lotion to my face regularly, anyways I got a bit off track lololol.

Okay lets get to the meat and potaterers. I uh have been waking up with hardcore vertigo and like falling out of bed and had a crazy dream where I was being grabbed at by hands while under the covers and a while back I thought there was a huge spider hanging above my head by like 2 inches so I yelled and ran out of my room to find nothing there and I always think things are watching me, I know that something is there and I had a horrible ghost experience at like 12 years old.

I went downstairs to take a shower and it was dark so I turned the lights on and went in and something was standing in there (I'm crying as I type this) so I was in shock and just stood there for like 10 seconds then ran out... and looked in there again and it was gone, you could even see the shadowing of the figure from outside it so I called first and there was no answer. from then on I would always be afraid of that room and it was a large room btw. there was a water heater among other things in the corner with like 4 feet of darkened space behind it and it was never the same again.

I just think that this world is so idk how to put it, weird I guess. It's completely chaotic yet we try to maintain this facade of order and it's impossible. Look at all the depressed and medicated people and the suicide rates. Our governments are molding us into the perfect controllable human. I know I'm not completely whacko because as that one guy said (Idk his name) uh it went something like a crazy person never knows he's crazy idk. Whatever lol.

Wow I typed idk a lot huh?

I totally forgot the reason I typed this and the sad thing is that I'm completely sober right now and managed to type that (all of it is true btw, can somebody send me a medal?

Now I'm going to be reliving that traumatic ghost experience until I eventually forget it again, the next few weeks are going to suck, thankfully I have 5 lights in my room haha!

EDIT: I am actually shaking right now, it could be from the cold though but I think it's moreso because the sun doesn't rise for let me google it sec... for t-minus 1 hour and 3 minutes.
 
Ghosts are very unlikely to be real.
However, your brain delivers some strong fuck-uppers during sleep. Dreams are very often very wild and completely bonkers. They're usually gone before you wake up completely, but they can remain sometimes, especially if you have a lot of stress and problems with sleeping.
Maybe you developed sleep apnoea or whatever. You might want to get a polysomnography. And your life in check.
 
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Omg you might be right, It's been happening a lot lately. At least every other night. I just read about it and I do get very short of breath and I can't stay awake for more than like 10 hours straight before I go to bed.
 
The thing about ghosts is that's it's impossible for a ghost to be human. All humans go to an afterlife. The only things that can be ghosts are ancient single celled organism that lived before souls were evolved. So if you ever see a ghost don't be scared because it's just a collection of pathetic soulless microbes that are pretending to be ghosts of humans.
 
Travalanche said:
Okay, I'm a 24yr old dude
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Whuh? Hmm. I feel like I should probably take this opportunity to apologize for taking you seriously when you said you were 13 before. Hope I didn't offend when I defended you as an adolescent.

Being an insomniac and a natural ghost-allergen, I know precious little of dreams or hauntings, so as to the rest, I've got nothin'. Hassknecht hit the nail on the head when he suggested a sleep study, I'd say.
 
Wow dude, this is depressing.
Is there any family in the picture that can help you out or are you on your own?
If you really think the place is haunted move the fuck out of there. If you're still seeing things in a new place, it's probably all in your head. I believe in ghosts. But in your case, considering all the emotional shit and the drinking, who knows.
Sleep apnea is a killer. It would be worth looking into that right away.
 
I think it might all boil down to having sleep problems most of my life, I'm not depressed or anything though even though I probably should be. I honestly just enjoy drinking and it makes me happy and more sociable. I honestly believe that I saw something that day and I haven't seen anything definitive since.

Imagine waking up before school and seeing a grey shadow in your shower, I can't even remember exactly what it looked like I was so shocked. It could have been in my mind but it definitely seemed real. But yeah my life isn't horrible, just a bit uneventful and stagnant. I never went to college, have worked crap jobs, and am a bit eccentric irl so I have a lot going against me and the drinking sort of makes me forget and enjoy myself if only for a few hours.

I also find it weird how I have almost no luck with women at all compared to almost every guy that I know, I am easy to talk too and not bad looking, things just never progress beyond the friend zone, I mean my younger brother has better luck than me and he's overweight, shy, and depressed yet I'm sort of the opposite.

Maybe it's because I'm too outgoing and it scares women off, I've been called crazy an awful lot in my life just because I can't hold back what I say, I was discussing blowjobs with 60 year old women the other day at the grocery store and laughing and everyone around me just stared.

Sometimes I just feel like the one can in the value pack of bean dip that had botchelism (spelling). But doesn't realize that because it doesn't have a brain as it's a legume obviously.

I have no luck at all in the workplace either, I have been fired from countless jobs just due to the way I present myself in social situations. Think a real life captain jack sparrow with scurvy minus the stupid jewelry and stuff.

This topic actually got me some insight but honestly I don't want to change and I'm sure once I get my sleep fixed things will work themselves out.

IDK I think the main problem is that I feel like I don't belong in modern day society with all it's rules and whatnot. It's extremely hard to be successful if your not a sheeple and speak your mind. Maybe I should have been an author but I'm piss poor at grammar and ramble way too much so that's probably a big contributor to my life, I really don't want to end up homeless because I like to muck around with video games and stuff but that's probably my fate in a decade or two so I'm living it up now.

Whatever, I'm sick of focusing on the negative. I never meant to make anyone reading this feel sad for me because I'm not a sad person myself.

But don't you guys ever think something is off with the world yet you don't know what it is? It's almost like your a brain in a vat just living in a huge program or something-or-other. I've been wondering about this for a while and whenever I think hard about it my brain gets fuzzy lol. The vertigo problem waking up only lasts like 10 minutes tops but eventually I get my bearings and I certainly believe sleep apnea is a primary issue for me yet it doesn't make since because I only weigh 170 and am 5'11'' which is about normal, I was given a half-assed diagnosis for Asthma yet I've never used an inhaler due to cost reasons. That appointment itself took a $100 chunk out of my pocket.

Anyways, I love your picture mobucks. I haven't seen a mullet for quite some time and they are certainly a refreshing sight to behold in their glory. The kid also seems content with his life and happy. I remember having a school picture taken around that young mans age but the background was a bit sparkly with a purple and blue on dark blue background and the photographer allowed to hold my chihuahua who was around 5 (human years) at the time.
 
Sleep apnoea is not necessarily due to being overweight. If you don't want to spend money on going to a full sleep lab, you can just set up a mic and record your night. If you hear weird snoring patterns (the wiki article describes those) you might have problems with breathing during the night. It happens and is often treatable.
Your lack of luck with women is not due to your physical aspects, it's your personality, simple as that. Usually people say 'be yourself', but that's kinda the problem here, isn't it?
 
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