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Wuts wrong with yo life?

I hate myself for being incompetent, having accomplished nothing, having Autism, having dreams and ambitions but not being able to realize them because I can not focus or concentrate, or develop skills.
I know things will not become better.

Just try to take things as they come, accept things as they are, and do the things you enjoy. Ambitions are a good thing to have and we should always be keeping them in mind and working towards them, but we can't become fixated or neurotic when we fall short.

You're sounding a bit glum.

I have been glum for months, and it will not become better.
Partly because of myself, my stupidity, my limitations, my inability to accomplish anything.
Hence why I want to kill my own body.

Considering your Autism and the fact that you live in the Netherlands you may well have already tried it before (if not currently), but if you're really feeling this poorly therapy is always worth pursuing. It won't 'cure' anything of course but it will help you work through at least these current issues.