This next story is just so wrong its sad...its also recent as it occurred less than a month ago.
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The Farewell that came One Second too Late
So Im belaboring how lame it is that not only have I not had a relationship, but that most people have to work to start one when I have opportunity's fall in my lap randomly. It made me realise that my complacency might be somehow to blame for me missing out yet also might be a reason for the apparent attractiveness. (Ive heard indifference is a turn on...go figure) In any case I decided to make a go at the first romantic idea I could come up with...
Way back when Kaelyn (see my third story) was wooing me in at college I was equally on good terms with the other two girls running the anime club. Two Taiwanese twins by the names of Nancy and Lorraine. They were quite amazing...both short and slim, but with one telling difference. Nancy had a husky voice more masculine while Lorraine had a loud high-pitched voice like a little girl. This was a weird reference to their psychological nature as Nancy was very reserved and quiet while Lorraine was loud and showy. The entire time I was with them they were both very friendly and helpful. (though not as much as Kaelyn)
At the end of that year they went on to another college to persue their bachelors degrees while I remained to get my associates degree. I kept in touch online though naturally nowhere near as much as in real life. I learned more about them and found them to be wonderful people though they were more interested in anime than I was and preferred console rpg's to PC.
I couldnt feel bad about this. You see though I work to help pay for college and I spend very little on non-necessities as well as being cheap on things I need I often have very little money. I have around $3,000 in my account and I usually spend a bit less than I gather through working wages in a month, but the surplus I build is demolished every six months in college costs and at the end of the year I litereally break even. Long ago I decided that of the roughly $200 I spend to make myself happy each year that if I split it up evenly on what I enjoy I would only spend about $50 each on gaming, MTG, books and anime. Ultimately I realised thats practically nothing to buy in order to be a "fan" for those things. Early on I realised I should just put all my money into two of those things. I decided on MTG (since I could win stuff in tournaments) and on books since they were cheap. So games and anime were out of the question being that they were more expensive and I would get less "time" for the money spent. Although I still retain my joy for games and anime I really cant communicate with those who do anymore since Im "out of the loop".
Yet here were two girls who Im sure liked me and I would love to get to know better. I didnt know enough about consolre rpg's or anime to start up anything more than a casual weekly chat about life that didnt really make for stimulating conversation. I would have stopped there...I
WAS going to get myself a relationship though...
So I decide no matter what that if I could just get spend my money differently it would be worth it to get to know either of them better. First I should probably profess my feelings toward one of them and ask them on a date. Then I would get the information needed to start buying some things we can do/talk of together besides having a friend. It would be my first real time of "asking" for something. I also new that Nancy thought well of me since she did ask for my phone number though she never called...
I logged onto AIM and found Nancy on. I wrote up a message to start without saying hello. It went something like this;
"Nancy...I got to know you long ago and I always thought you were a wonderful person. Ive also talked to all your online friends and realise you'd like someone to...know you better. I have to be honest. I could easily be more interested in anime and just need someone to be a closer friend to me. I hear you like going out. How about you and me go to dinner my treat?"
So I sit and looked at the message. I was finally ready and felt very at ease. My right pinky finger reached down and to the right to press the "enter" button and send my message...
*Out of story*
God: "THE VAULT DWELLER! THOU SHALT NOT EVER REPRODUCE!"
*back to story*
...thats when it happened. Literally fractions of second before I hit enter the sound of a closing door could be heard. I knew what that meant, but had to check. As I hit enter (my body was already acting before my mind could stop my hand) a different text box popped up in front of the chat box preventing me from seeing what was said. The latest box in front was blinking and said "This message could not be sent, because the user Youkofujima could not be found." I clicked the "X" to close the box and was able to see the chat box again. Up at the top as the first message was the blue font that shows up when something happens to a user's status. It said;
"Youkofujima logged off of AIM at 00:02"
...I was fractions of a second late.
Ah, but is their not always a glimmer of hope? I thought I would try again the next day.
So the next day she wasnt on. I then remembered she had a livejournal though I hadnt been checking it recently since she stopped making entrys for quite a while. I read the last months few entries to my horror;
-Her: "Ive been getting straight A's my whole life waiting to get a job so I can have a happy life rich. Yet now Im rewarding even earlier since I
just got accepted to a university in Japan! Apparently I can receive enough scholarships to go there for about as much money as here in the USA. I do miss Taiwan however and Japan is closer to me than the USA. Besides...I already spend so much time learning Japanese I can more or less speak it (along with Chinese and English) I wont have a problem. Though finding anime fans or other Asians should be no problem now...
Her other entires were about how excited she was...the last entry being from the day before when I tried to talk to her saying she was leaving
THE VERY NEXT DAY. I checked her sister's livejournal to find a description of how she drove her sister to the airport and is going to miss her...
...she wont be the only one.
[joke]
On a lighter note Ive decided to never ever again try to do anything even closely associated with having or starting a relationship and Im going to start with a celebratory visit to a doctor to have myself spayed or neutered. (I dont remember the difference.)
[/joke]
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The Vault Dweller
*EDIT*
Oh ya and I never got to say goodbye to her either...
Damn... that's one fucked up face 
